Confidence

Being twenty and basically a girl the thing that I have struggled through many years is being confident. Confidence is a really complicated subject. There are many variables you have to take into consideration…

I have met many types of girls chubby, thin, tall, short, long haired, short haired generally different than me. To my eyes they were ALL gorgeous inside and out. So the first thing that pops up on my mind when I come across such a beautiful person is what the hell went so wrong with me. So I took a step back and cleared my head. And that is when I realized that it isn’t about how tall or how curvy you are. It is about how you carry yourself and what you think about you. Because if you choose to see things differently and start to love the things that make you YOU then other people will start to love them. Trust me on this. If you come off as a person that hasn’t the ability to do anything, if you are conviced that you are useless then people will have that opinion about you. Being able to say that I love my body or my hair or who I am is the HARDEST thing that we all have to achieve. It does seem IMPOSSIBLE at times. It took me years to be able to say that I will fight for things because I deserve them. I used to think that I wasn’t good enough to be happy so I stopped trying to. And you know what happened?? Everything in my life went wrong. I felt so unworthy, I cried all day and didn’t do anything fun. But now I have realized that all those horrible things that happened to me and all the other GOOD things that I’ve missed out because I was scared were MY choice. And then I started to do things. I started to take care of myself more, I started talking to people. I started TRYING to do better. And oddly enough I did. I am better now. And although I am not the girl I dream to be I am closer to being her. So take this advice from me: if you don’t like something about your life do something to change it 
 
Here’s a picture of really pretty lights because why not?